Honestly... Walking In Faith

Honestly I can say I am a failed blogger. My head hangs low in shame for the small amount of times I have composed a post! Woe is my not so blogger soul! I could write and write of excuses of my dismal performance but at last, there is no excuse for my long-turn absence. So instead of writing why I have not kept up, i feel it best to simply over-look it all, strain my eyes forward and take a step and begin to stay positive of my new future plans that I will happily share after i quickly catch you up on what has happened in these last few months.
It is now mid May of 2013 and no longer December of 2012. I am no longer in Malawi, Africa but instead I have resided my head here in Kirkland, WA after spending over a month in Canada. 'What was in Canada' you ask. My lovely girlfriend Rachel LeGear and her family. I went there for a month to meet the folks, work for her Dad and eat some Tim Hortons, ( for those Americans that do not know this place, it is a wanna-be Starbucks that is more like a McDonalds, don't be fooled by the luring Dr. Seuss name, i can vouch that there are no Green Eggs and Ham. I have been back-packing around and couching at generous friends and families homes. Walking in faith has been the theme of these last few months. I'm finding out more and more who I am and who I am not with and without God.
But besides all that, I have found a passion and a driving force in my life in the mission field. I love doing missions. Being in Malawi has put things into perspective for me. That I am in love with love; God is Love. And I know that this love that is God needs to be shown to so many people locally and world-wide. This Love changes the hearts and minds of hurting people. I've seen what it has done in my life and the lives of people around me. Its Transformational, it truly is. And i long to see this transformation and this love shown and that's what brings me to my next point.
I am going back to LA! I am going to continue to be a missionary and to walk out in Faith. In June I am going to a secondary school called SLAM (Seminar of Leadership and Ministry). It is a month long program that will teach me how to be a leader in the mission field. It is the next step I need in order to become staff at YWAM LA and continue to show love locally around LA and the rest of the world. This is my reality, not so much a dream but a passion in progress. There are tensions around being a missionary, no lie. I have heard it all, not to go back or asked, when am I going to start my life or that I am crazy. But you know, I am crazy, aren't we all just a bit? If you think you aren't then I invite you to step back take a Polaroid picture of yourself, take some time to wave that thing around and post it on a wall and really think. But it is so good to be crazy! It is what God has planned for our lives. His original beautiful design for each and every one of us. To be equally and absolutely different in the ways we are who we are. It just so happens that this is my craziness and I accept it. Because I believe in Love, I believe in a God that is Love and it has been made known to me by a God who speaks fluently and sufficiently that I am not here to live the 'American Dream' but I have been chosen to live the 'Kingdom Reality'.

 In these last few months, I have truly found that I have no house but am never homeless, I have no money but have no worries, I have no food but I never go hungry, some say i have no future but I stay hopeful, and I have no hate but only Love. I look forward to my future in the mission field, and I hope those who read this will begin pray with me and will forgive me for my failure as a blogger and maybe this may even begin to challenge you to "Honestly....Walk in Faith"

Gods Peace and Love

Nathan Dvorak

Stay tuned to see what happens next................. Only God knows