Emergency- Dreams

Something has been happening, i know that for a fact. Not afraid to be myself and pursue my dreams. Nothin is out of reach when I am filled with God and use this filling to bring glory to my father in heaven. Holy spirit filled and ready to rock the world in the name of Love.
Its so crazy how much power there is in knowing God and getting him to be known. I'm finding God wanting to use my talents my gifts to let his name and character be known. I have just begin to discover where my talents are falling and sinking and which ones are growing and being fertilized to blossum into something beautiful.
So here is a sneak peak at my long term dream. I want to start a YWAM base up in Seattle. My home state where my heart is, where depression is so prevelant and drug use is more then just a habit. This is my far future plan. Whatever happens from now till there will just add to the tasty insides of the sandwich that is my life. I'm feeling full of passion and life and dreams!
And that is why the enemy would try to be getting me down. In the last 2 weeks I've had three trips to the Emergency room. Yeah...3. One for my girlfriend and two for me. I had a cyst on my leg once and they gave me medicine and then just two days ago I had an allergic reaction to the medicine they gave me and began to break out in hives and get a fever. And then we had to go to the hospital and be there for 13 hours because Rachel has been having some rare neurological symptoms and has been in a lot of pain and feeling the fatigue. This all began happening once me and Rachel talked about our dream to start a school in Seattle. Crazy to see how real spiritual warfare is.
Why does it seem that once things go good it goes bad right away? yeah.. that's why.
But through it all I have persevered under trial and have only gotten stronger in my faith. I won't be brought down that easy. I wanna have a Job like way of life. Never loose my faith under any circumstance.

" It's better to loose your life then it is to loose your life"

Spoken Word: is a performance art that is word-based. It often includes collaboration and experimentation with other art forms such as music, theater, and dance.

I'm heavily influenced by writing poems and listening to instrumental music. And so I've been putting these two things together and watching some artists like Odd Thomas, and Citizen Aim, and Propaganda. And it feels like home. So tomorrow on base we are have an art expression thing and I will be doing my first spoken word! 

Here is an example of the type of stuff I'm gunna be trying: 

 

ATTENTION.... Coffee Needed

Dreams, passions, focus, values, morals becoming realistic through determination, faith, grace, wisdom and prayer.
For my whole life I've heard people tell me "you are going to do something big, God has huge plans for you, you are special, you've been picked, chosen, you can do anything." And as great and encouraging as all this sounds and felt at first, it came with a toll, a toll of thinking that so many people expect great things of me that  "I cant mess up or I will let everyone down". But being human as I am of course I screwed up plenty of times and lost sight of what being a disciple of Christ is really about. I thought it was all about me and what I need to do and what I can not do. Needless to say without writing out my whole life story and testimony, I gave up trying to do good and instead found it much easier to do bad. I did bad for years and years, still praying and searching for God all while digging a hole which put me farther away from God.
Not until recently these last 2 years have i realized the concept that its not about what I do or don't do, but it is about God and what Jesus already did! Amen! It's by grace and not by works that I am free and need not to feel the harsh pressures and stress of trying to work my way to have Jesus love me.
And in this last year God has made me realize I have some pretty awesome dreams! Like really really cool dreams! And not only that, but that they are possible to obtain. I'm searching how and taking steps to reach them. I am a little tired and worn out now though (hence the reason there is a need for coffee). I know through God (and some caffeine) I have the strength to reach my dreams and to hold on to hope!

If you tune in next week I will tell you these radical, freakishly amazing dreams of mine!

God Bless

" Find Peace and Beauty in the Small to Live Life Large"
-Me

Time to be Open

So here I am in LA beginning my adventure in SLAM after 2367 km of driving (how ever that much is in miles(my girlfriend's car speaks Canadian)). We traveled down the I-5 through Washington and Oregon and part of California until we jumped on the highway 1 to ride along the coastline the rest of the way down.

In that long time of driving I had plenty of time to think about life. So I'm going to be open with you. Lately I have been struggling with doubt. Doubt in myself mainly. Being unsure of the decision I had made to leave behind everything yet again to spend all the money I have to go back to YWAM. It has been driving pretty insane! But some where along the road I had this feeling of peace and confidence come over me. I knew that this is the right

decision no matter what kind of opposition or barriers were there to get in my way! Whether or not I have money, or a car or a 'job' or am on the 'right' path to some people, I know deep down in the fiber of my being that I love people and I love God and I want to see the two come hand and hand and life life as an adventure. And this path I'm on is leading me right to that!
Our first assignment for SLAM is to keep a blog (thank God I already have one). So I will be more devoted to writing in here because now it is also an assignment and not just a hobby I rarely do.Today we have been learning about what passion is. I had to give an answer to what I am passionate about and honestly, being open and all, I had a hard time because of the confusion I'm going through. But in time I know I will have the answer!

Passion: a desire you are willing to suffer for

So for the 4 people that are actually following me, first off Thanks! and secondly I hope you are ready to get to know me all too well, more than you probably want to! And be ready because on this adventure I am traveling light to bring the light and its going to start by being open and passionate!

SLAM....Dunk?

Here is some information for those of you who want to know more about what adventure I am off to next!


http://ywamla.org/training/seminar-of-leadership-ministry-development/






Ill be on my way soon!

Honestly... Walking In Faith

Honestly I can say I am a failed blogger. My head hangs low in shame for the small amount of times I have composed a post! Woe is my not so blogger soul! I could write and write of excuses of my dismal performance but at last, there is no excuse for my long-turn absence. So instead of writing why I have not kept up, i feel it best to simply over-look it all, strain my eyes forward and take a step and begin to stay positive of my new future plans that I will happily share after i quickly catch you up on what has happened in these last few months.
It is now mid May of 2013 and no longer December of 2012. I am no longer in Malawi, Africa but instead I have resided my head here in Kirkland, WA after spending over a month in Canada. 'What was in Canada' you ask. My lovely girlfriend Rachel LeGear and her family. I went there for a month to meet the folks, work for her Dad and eat some Tim Hortons, ( for those Americans that do not know this place, it is a wanna-be Starbucks that is more like a McDonalds, don't be fooled by the luring Dr. Seuss name, i can vouch that there are no Green Eggs and Ham. I have been back-packing around and couching at generous friends and families homes. Walking in faith has been the theme of these last few months. I'm finding out more and more who I am and who I am not with and without God.
But besides all that, I have found a passion and a driving force in my life in the mission field. I love doing missions. Being in Malawi has put things into perspective for me. That I am in love with love; God is Love. And I know that this love that is God needs to be shown to so many people locally and world-wide. This Love changes the hearts and minds of hurting people. I've seen what it has done in my life and the lives of people around me. Its Transformational, it truly is. And i long to see this transformation and this love shown and that's what brings me to my next point.
I am going back to LA! I am going to continue to be a missionary and to walk out in Faith. In June I am going to a secondary school called SLAM (Seminar of Leadership and Ministry). It is a month long program that will teach me how to be a leader in the mission field. It is the next step I need in order to become staff at YWAM LA and continue to show love locally around LA and the rest of the world. This is my reality, not so much a dream but a passion in progress. There are tensions around being a missionary, no lie. I have heard it all, not to go back or asked, when am I going to start my life or that I am crazy. But you know, I am crazy, aren't we all just a bit? If you think you aren't then I invite you to step back take a Polaroid picture of yourself, take some time to wave that thing around and post it on a wall and really think. But it is so good to be crazy! It is what God has planned for our lives. His original beautiful design for each and every one of us. To be equally and absolutely different in the ways we are who we are. It just so happens that this is my craziness and I accept it. Because I believe in Love, I believe in a God that is Love and it has been made known to me by a God who speaks fluently and sufficiently that I am not here to live the 'American Dream' but I have been chosen to live the 'Kingdom Reality'.

 In these last few months, I have truly found that I have no house but am never homeless, I have no money but have no worries, I have no food but I never go hungry, some say i have no future but I stay hopeful, and I have no hate but only Love. I look forward to my future in the mission field, and I hope those who read this will begin pray with me and will forgive me for my failure as a blogger and maybe this may even begin to challenge you to "Honestly....Walk in Faith"

Gods Peace and Love

Nathan Dvorak

Stay tuned to see what happens next................. Only God knows

Life Is Good

Life here in Africa is too good to be true!
On the weekly we go into a town called Kauma and hang out with a bunch of kids, they are so incredible.
Just two days ago, I was chosen to preach a sermon to 130  people of Kauma at a small baptist church in town. It was intense to go up there and preach to everyone with an interpreter, but i feel that God was really able to speak through me. God put on my heart to speak on being 'Real'. I talked about my life and a time of darkness where i cried out to God and was so real with Him, and he responded and that's when He became real to me. I was real with everyone there and talked about how real Jesus was and is as a man and as God. More then 20-30 people gave their lives to God that day. The kids made lines and we were able to pray for each kid individually. It was so awesome!
So much has been happening that I couldn't even begin to explain all that has been happening! I will try some how to get pictures or videos up ASAP.
Thank you all for praying for me and thinking about me!

God Bless You; Stay Real

Nathan Dvorak

Its Christmas Time in Africa

So here I am in Malawi, Africa on Christmas Eve. Despite what time it says I posted this I am 10 hours ahead (yes as I went to Africa I travelled into the future my friends). It is 8:36 pm here and I just got done enjoying an African BBQ and dancing around on Christmas Eve with some locals. So far everything in Malawi is going amazing! I've been able to see God work through me in some filthy ways! We've see over 75 people ( mainly cute little African kids) dedicate their lives to Christ. Along with healings of pain and asthma. Needless to say I have a lot to thank God for this year!
I miss you all and I wish you all a Merry Christmas!!
God Bless!

Hebrews 13: 1-3